Amber Williams

I was trying really hard to get myself to fall a sleep at a decent hour. The problem with not working is that it screws with my daily structured routine. Instead of sleeping at an earlier time at night so that I can get up at an earlier time in the morning, I end up burning the midnight oil, then wondering why it's so difficult to pull my ragged body out of the bed in the morning. But tonight, like so many night recently, I lay here tossing and turning and all alone with my relentless thoughts. Restless. I've gotten really good at being able to deal with my inner voice and basically tell it to shut up, but these days it works in overdrive to try to remind me of every embarrassing and regretful thing I have done. Tonight is of no exception. It jumps back and forth from: "why couldn't I have gotten this job? What did I do wrong? What did I do right?!" to "How are we going to afford to move? How are we going to pay our bills??"... It used to be that one...

Oh what a season of life! I am def. over it and ready for my new chapter to hit! I try really hard to stay positive on this site, but I guess in hindsite, it's really here for you to see what's really going on in my rosie world huh? I've been trying to darndest to keep everything together, stay positive, stay sane, not worry about tomorrow and ultimately trust that God will provide what's needed when it's needed. So far, I have to admit he's been faithful to me. We've had little unexpected breaks come up which help so much! Hubby has been working so hard and has been so stressed as well, I need to remember to really reward his hard work when better times come! He really deserves it! I'm just so grateful for his amazing heart! He continually steps up to the plate and shows what a man should be for his family! I'm so lucky to have him! I know I've been a bit moody and tempermental, dealing with the stress of a job loss, financial hardships, we are ...

Patience is something that I practice all the time, but in all honestly, I've never gotten good at. I find that after years of working on becoming more patient, I've just become a bit more frustrated and grumpy. Things sometimes don't move quick enough for me and sometimes that's ok, a lot of times, it makes me winge a little bit before I move forward. This is a bit of how I am feeling today. I've applied for countless numbers of jobs and it never ceases to amaze me that I've only been called to interview for ONE job! Not that I'm underminding that one job I have had interviews for. I think among all the the jobs I have applied for, this one is the most interesting and diverse I have ever had the privilage of being considered for. I also think it would be a great job and person to work for! It would be for a wealthy business man and his PA. He used to own a massive business (and market really for his trade), has sold it and now spends a lot of time doing ch...

It's been too long since I have had a chance to jump on here and update the world on the never ending saga's of this "One Woman Circus"! Apologies if anyone missed me! So what is going on!? Let me tell you! November 5th I lost my job due to just hardships on the company. There were ups and downs anyways, but it was sad. This company had been my family for over the past year. We all keep in touch on Facebook and phone, which I really appreciate! Unfortionately, I haven't been able to find a new replacement family yet. Honestly, I've put out loads of applications with no contact back except one (which is a first for me! I never thought I would ever be in that sort of position!) The one that has shown interest though is a VERY interesting job as a sort of "assistant to the assistant" sort of thing! The lady that I would work for (if I get the job) is really lovely! She is very open and easy to talk to and honestly, someone I would love to learn and gr...

Tomorrow is dooms day...No not really, but it is a test day! Whoo hoo! As a part of my journey to become a UK citizen, I'm required to take a "Life in the UK" National test. This test is required for all immigrants in order to continue on with being able to stay here in the UK. No, you don't get deported right away if you fail, this is a test that just needs to be passed before you go for your Indefinite Leave to Remain (ILR). If you don't have it passed by the time you go to your ILR appointment, then you worry! Fortunately for me, my ILR appointment isn't untill April of 2013. BUT I wanted to get this done and out of the way so that it's one less stressful thing to worry about! I can't imagine having to retake this test again and again, but I wanted the option there if needed. The other reason you don't want to take this test more than once: it's £50 a pop! (around $77.00!!!) Yikes!! I don't have that kind of money to waste! I'v...

Tonight was a night of studying, then relaxation and getting myself into some sort of "zen-like" mode. Thought about relaxing in the bath with a nice glass of wine, but got caught up in the movie "A Little Bit of Heaven" and decided that the bath was out. Was finishing up studying and then it hit me: I LEFT MY PINOT IN THE FREEZER!!! ((Followed by BIG MASSIVE POUT!!!)) Ha! Go Figure! The story of my life! There has been a lot going on with work, life and pending up coming events I've been trying to prepare for. This coming Friday I have to take a "Life in UK" test, which is all good and dandy. It's a pretty easy and straight forward test BUT there's just so much pressure to pass it as it's important in order to move forward with my immigration process! (Plus, it cost's £50 every time you take the stupid thing!) So, I'm hoping that first time is a charm and the test (That I have been studying for weeks now for!) will be a breez...

The weather is miserable today. It's raining, cold and frigid. I think we completely walked from Spring to Autumn this year with little teases of sun to keep us from going insane. The rain has been drizzling, it's been dark all day and here I am, snuggled up on my comfy reading chair with not one but 3 blankets draped over me! (It's cold!) and the heater working it's magic to add some comfort. I look over to my right and there stretched out on the couch is my husband with his laptop looking up car parts for our ever needing BMW. Despite the cold, the rain and three blankets, today I have felt the most content I think I have felt in a long time. Life is what is needs to be right now. Nothing is perfect but I have everything I need. Despite the weather, I've been looking forward to the changing colors of Autumn and the life changes that can come with it. It's like a new season can breath in a little new life sometimes you know? I love fall and I've been excit...