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Test Anxiety...

Tomorrow is dooms day...No not really, but it is a test day! Whoo hoo! As a part of my journey to become a UK citizen, I'm required to take a "Life in the UK" National test. This test is required for all immigrants in order to continue on with being able to stay here in the UK. No, you don't get deported right away if you fail, this is a test that just needs to be passed before you go for your Indefinite Leave to Remain (ILR). If you don't have it passed by the time you go to your ILR appointment, then you worry! Fortunately for me, my ILR appointment isn't untill April of 2013. BUT I wanted to get this done and out of the way so that it's one less stressful thing to worry about! I can't imagine having to retake this test again and again, but I wanted the option there if needed. The other reason you don't want to take this test more than once: it's £50 a pop! (around $77.00!!!) Yikes!! I don't have that kind of money to waste! I've been studying now for a month. I'm pretty sure I've got it down great, my practice tests are coming out good! I think it's just the associated pressure that goes with it that is doing me in! I would study for a life time before taking any test! I've never been a big fan of them! I'm trying to tell myself that this test is WAAAAYYY easier than the driving theory test I had to take! 1. there isn't even half the amount of questions in this test 2. most of them are silly easy one's like "how old do you have to be to purchase alcohol?" etc. Like I said, it's more the under lying pressures behind the test that makes me nervous! PLUS, I would be super embarrassed if I failed! I had a 3.7 GPA in University, so I know I'm not dumb...I'm just too hard on myself really! Please send good thoughts my way! I could use the love! :) Right! I'm going to try to get some sleep so I can wake up lovely and intelligent in the A.M. Let's do this thing! Live, Laugh, Love!

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