Oh what a season of life! I am def. over it and ready for my new chapter to hit! I try really hard to stay positive on this site, but I guess in hindsite, it's really here for you to see what's really going on in my rosie world huh? I've been trying to darndest to keep everything together, stay positive, stay sane, not worry about tomorrow and ultimately trust that God will provide what's needed when it's needed. So far, I have to admit he's been faithful to me. We've had little unexpected breaks come up which help so much! Hubby has been working so hard and has been so stressed as well, I need to remember to really reward his hard work when better times come! He really deserves it! I'm just so grateful for his amazing heart! He continually steps up to the plate and shows what a man should be for his family! I'm so lucky to have him! I know I've been a bit moody and tempermental, dealing with the stress of a job loss, financial hardships, we are also having to move out of our home, etc. So, between job hunting, home hunting (which one is kind of affecting a decision on the other, which adds to the stress!), constant budgeting and reviewing and so forth, I've been under a lot of stress and panick lately. It's been a bit harder to deal with the days, but I'm soldering on. As stressed as I get, I always remember there is hope!
I do think I have lost weight, but mostly due to the stress. When I'm stressed out, I tend to get bad anxiety, which means loss of appitite due to feeling sick most of the time. So without meaning to, I tend to forget to eat. To be honest, it's probaby partly good because I was WAAAAY over eating before the stress, so it's put me in a bit of a reality check as I now see what I was eating to what I should be eating, but at the same time, I'm having a hard time hitting those calorie goals, which isn't healthy as well. Not eating is never the best answer. I just need to get past this phase of life.
I just ask that whatever your beliefs are, you send out prayers for a job and smooth move to a new home! I would be greatly appreciate it! I also pray for not only my situation, but many that I know are in the same position as myself. I pray that in these hard times they don't lose site of who they are and the hope that keeps them moving forward! Stay strong!
Remember to: Live, Laugh and Love!
"Whenever I want you all I have to do is dream..." Funny the things dreams are made of. Interesting how the mind wanders, vents, releases, explores the inner depths of the mind and inner dwindling desires. For me, It seems to be 1 of 2 different outlets for me: first being Anger and pain, second being desire and longing. Both produce the same results: loneliness. Now don't go thinking that I'm all depressed and need an intervention (although maybe sometimes I do!), it's just that sometimes life knocks you hard in the butt and its difficult to keep up with the constant marathon race. Maybe my reaction isn't the best method of dealing, but I can't seem to help the constant exhaustion no matter how hard I try! I am just ready to hit that next chapter of my life you know? So, let me explain the anger dreams...I don't know why they are coming back, but it has to do with the skank that my ex cheated on me and left me for. I think a lot of the tension i...
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