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Do you think I'm a fool?

Its funny that certain people always thought I would be just a pee on. Well, it's nice for once to see you sweating the bullets! You see, I hate being peed on, but I also know what goes around comes around and with a little bit of hard work and some good karma, all the sudden I don't seem so weak!

I love how you think you can play the emotional cards on me such as "Leaving the love of family and close friends!"...What you don't realize is that I don't care...It's not that I don't care about the love of family and close friends mind you, because I do, it's that all my family and friends are completely supportive and excited for me about this, so trying to use them against me is pointless because I already have "their blessings". I've got the love and support from the people I CARE about! It's just that you think I'm impressionable and naive, but what it has come down to is that I say anything just to shut you up! You think your tac-tics will change my mind but it makes me laugh at your desperateness...Why you ask?

Because I know what REALLY matters to you! That's right, while you think I have no clue whats going on, I can see you fumbling frantically to try to work me like a puppet, the only problem is that there are no strings attached...Physically, mentally or emotionally. I'm not a person to you, I'm a walking dollar sign to you, my only purpose to you is to fill your pockets...and when I stop being as productive, you'll turn me out for the new shiny toy. I get it, I know it, it is no great secret! But you can't play with me. It's sad I have no value as a real individual or human being or that you care nothing about whats in MY best interest...You care nothing about my happiness, just how it effects your deep pockets. THIS is why I don't care...TRY to emotionally guilt me all you want, it won't work, I know your real intentions.

The sad thing is that when I'm gone, your going to realize what you lost and life going to get a little bit harder and I'm going to look back and smile and say "Sometimes Karma's a Bitch! Peace out!"

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