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Life has been good! Slow during the week then a mad dash over the weekend (trying to get things done that includes Dave's help...and a car! LOL!) But during the week, I'm spending my time cleaning, cooking, wandering around the town, watching T.V. reading, and playing on the computer. Sounds exciting huh? :)
It's not bad. Some days I'm a little bored, but I'm trying to make the best of this because I know I will be going back to work soon! (Which I am looking forward to as I know it will be a big help in making friends and getting to know the area better. But until then, my way of getting around is walking and exploring.

I think I'm starting to get over some of the shock. I know I draw some attention, but I don't notice it as much as I used to. I feel bad though for the people who are with me though because they tend to get the bulk of the questions. Yesterday my soon-to-be in-law's stopped in and invited me to go out around the town with them, which I did, and I know that there were a few times when I was further away, people would ask them about me in hushed tones. It isn't that they were trying to be rude or anything, it's that they don't want you to feel embarrassed for being different, so they choose not to draw attention to you by going to the next "normal" target that can answer their questions. I honestly don't mind, but I felt a little bad for the in-laws! (I think they kind of enjoyed it though!) But I do have to confess I find myself being a little more shy and insecure here than I thought I would be! (I know, your ALL laughing at that comment!) It's much different when you are the odd one in a group of odds, but when you are alone, it takes a while to warm up to the curiosity it draws because it tends to make you feel a little more insecure than you ever thought you would feel. It's fine, I probably won't notice in the next few weeks!

Tonight, the plan is to hang with the in-laws again! I'm going to their "social center" (I think is what they called it!), which sounds a little more like a senior center. I don't mind though! It gets me out and forces me that much more to get used to hearing them talk and get used to interacting, etc. I think it will be fun! (and yes my friends, there is bingo! LOL!) I will let you know how it goes! :) Ok...I think it might be time to brave working out in the great outdoors! :) Wish me luck!!

Live, Laugh, Love!

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