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Am I Scared?

"Are you scared?"

This is a question I get frequently from people and I sat with myself tonight and decided to try to be really honest with my feelings. So in simple reply: Yes, I am scared!

You see, it's scary moving so far away from my family, especially because I'm so close to them. It's scary having to learn a new way of life, living, and rules and regulations and new structure of life...etc. I have fears such as "will they like me?", "Will I make friends?", "Will I be successful at work?", Etc. etc. etc. Even dumb things like driving (on the wrong side of the road no less!) stresses me out! Sometimes I wondered if I was crazy and the questions of "what the heck am I doing!?!? Is this crazy?!" Then I sit and look at pictures and notes and texts I've received which then just makes me want to get there and fit in and continue to love life with the one I love...So am I scared, yes.

I may be scared, but I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life! You see, it's not just scary, it's exciting! It's an adventure! I have an opportunity of a lifetime getting to spend my life with someone I love and experiencing the world which is what I always dreamed of doing! As scary as it all seems sometimes, I'm just as anxious to begin it!

You see, I spent a lot of my life making "safe" choices for fear of making mistakes or being uncomfortable. I was always too scared to take chances. After the last couple years of my life, I thought why not take a chance, a leap of faith and step out of the comfort zone a little to see what happens? I did and I absolutely do no regret it! (Neither does my gypsy blood!)

Maybe sometimes the things that scare you most in life are the most rewarding to do...I hope your scary leap of faith proves to be as rewarding as mine!

Live, Laugh, Love.

Comments

Anonymous said…
I am so glad that you are taking this step. Time for you to live, love, and laugh in another part of the world, my friend. I love you!

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