Amber Williams

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For once, I would just love something to go smooth and easy! I'm really struggling this year and it would just be so amazing for life to just throw us a little bone once in a while you know? This week has really hit hard for me. For the last 3 weeks I have been a bit ill with stomach issues and such, to top it, started having massive anxiety issues to boot due to everything going on around me. (You wouldn't think that I would feel this way directly AFTER a vacation, but truth be told, I wasn't feeling well over the vacation either!) I've had other developing situations occur creating more stress and tension and the ONE thing I was hoping to just fall in place was find a new place to live! Dave and I had dilligently been looking every day for a new home as we have to be out of ours the last day of July. We had 3 amazing houses picked out to make offers on (obviously the we had an ord...

It's been too long since I've updated the world on my England adventure, so I thought now was a good time! The last couple weeks have been a bit hectic as I was super busy trying to get everything in line to go on vacation! It was an amazing vacation as well! My parents came to visit for 2 weeks and we showed them our local area and traveled out towards the country to show them beautiful old villages as well as some castles! From there, we ventured up and around Scotland which I must say, was equally as amazing and beautiful! From the Highlands to Loch Ness, It was just like out of the movies! We had pictures taken with a bagpiper who has played in New Yorks Macy's Day Parade (Compliments of Shaun Connery apparently!), we awed and dreamt what life would be like in Donan Castle and we were even kings, queens, prince and princesses in our own over night castle stay at Tullock Castle! It was an amazing experience and I'm just constantly reminded how lucky...No blessed! T...

Well, after a few days of playing around on Tumblr, I've decided that it will serve one purpose, just not the one that I have for this site! ((I know all 1 of you are sighing with relief! Lol!)) I do have the Tumblr site, but I've decided that the reason for keeping that is to post videos (which I will try to make more!) and just generally show you around England and expat life as well as share my adventures, etc. it's a very light and fun and hopefully interesting travel blog basically! :) This site I will reserve for my personal experiences to share with my closest friends, family, etc. so you know what's up with me personally! I will however, post the link to my new Tumblr site soon for your enjoyment! Alright, back to relaxing! Love you guys!

I've been looking quite a bit at Tumblr today and I really like all the features it is offering in one blog. I'm also thinking of doing it as something that I can post for everyone to see. (I don't tell many about this blog as it was invented mostly to help me grow and heal from my previous divorce and maybe be a comfort for others possibly going through the same situation. Basically, if your on this and read it, count yourself blessed because I don't share this with everyone, I selected people I felt comfortable viewing this!). I'm not ashamed of this blog, but rather thinking that maybe I'm ready to move from it into a different chapter in life that needs to positively and creatively re-enforce the positive things I have going on in my world. I may just keep it when I need to write out things as this is a little bit more of a formal blog...I haven't decided if I'm going to delete it or keep it on the side, so I'll leave it for the time being. ...

In true England fashion, today grace's us with continued rain (yet somehow the southern area of England is in a drought? I have yet to figure that one out!). It's very quiet and still outside despite the light pitter patter of rain. To my amazement, there is never thunder or lightening. I've seen so many heavy showers fall, but never hear that magnetic and still therapeutic sound of clashing thunder. Sometimes I miss that. Sometimes I crave that feeling of comfort it gives, or sometimes that electric energy buzz it gives you. It's never hard to find something to marval at as long as your willing to keep an open mind, heart and eye. Here, there seems to be no shortage of interesting things to admire. Old buildings, cobblestone streets still exist, vast colors that are brilliant in the sun. I need to post more pictures! (Working on that I promise!) Today though, I just feel dis-enchanted with things. I think it's just one of those "blah" days, but I'...

So, I thought I was doing pretty awesome at this whole immigration thing but what is always failed to be told is the difficulty meeting and making friends. I'm in a position right now where to be honest, I feel forgotten by the old friends and family and not making any success moving forward to making new despite my efforts to get out there. I'm starting to become one of those people who I used to get so annoyed with! You know, the kind that are super chatty and clingy and sometimes the always whining type. I'm usually a really positive, encouraging person but lately, I feel like a freak'n psycho! I'm lonely, and have also moved to the moody stage of being whiney and cranky and to be honest, I've lost all motivation. I wish it was as easy as just "getting a hobby" but seriously people, you gotta have money to do that! So no, until debts are paid off, I'm not adding to that list of due payments. It's just different here than in the U.S. or m...

After 3 plus years of holding a tight grudge, I finally had the realization that I have no reason to be angry anymore. I had no desire to mourn losses and I was really just ready to get and emotional monkey off my back. That being said, I decided to respond back to an almost year old apology letter from the woman that my ex-husband left me for. It was a really great letter basically telling her how happy I am currently and how I forgive her and want us both to move forward with our lives. I don't regret writing this letter at all. BUT.... Now she wants to try to become friends! She sent me a facebook message thanking me for the letter and a sad story about how my letter got to her on her moms 3rd anniversary of her death and how she was having a hard time and how much my letter helped her...I'm glad it did, but I'm not sure I'm ready to start a friendship..is that bad? I mean, I feel like I should after the letter but I just don't know that I'm ready! Not su...