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When Things Fall Through the Cracks

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For once, I would just love something to go smooth and easy! I'm really struggling this year and it would just be so amazing for life to just throw us a little bone once in a while you know? This week has really hit hard for me. For the last 3 weeks I have been a bit ill with stomach issues and such, to top it, started having massive anxiety issues to boot due to everything going on around me. (You wouldn't think that I would feel this way directly AFTER a vacation, but truth be told, I wasn't feeling well over the vacation either!) I've had other developing situations occur creating more stress and tension and the ONE thing I was hoping to just fall in place was find a new place to live! Dave and I had dilligently been looking every day for a new home as we have to be out of ours the last day of July. We had 3 amazing houses picked out to make offers on (obviously the we had an order of what we wanted), today, we LOST ALL THREE choices! I'm absolutely gutted! I REALLY was excited about our first choice and was so sure we would be able to get it! But as of today, we are back on the search for a new home again. We found a few more that we thought were nice, but nothing like what was originally found. I'm finding myself a bit worried that we will end up in a place we don't really like, or a not so good area of town due to the fact of how soon we need to be out of our current apartment. I don't really think that will be the case, But please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. I know I tend to stress and worry and I need to not over-think and worry about this current situation. I think it's just tough because a lot of this I have to deal with alone with my husband traveling Monday-Friday afternoon with work (it's a lot of time to be alone with no friends to chat with and relieve stress and tension.) Maybe it's time I find something hobby-wise to engross myself in....I don't know. Really, I just need this week to be done and over with! Breath in...Breath out! :) Love you all and hope things are well with you!

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