In true England fashion, today grace's us with continued rain (yet somehow the southern area of England is in a drought? I have yet to figure that one out!). It's very quiet and still outside despite the light pitter patter of rain. To my amazement, there is never thunder or lightening. I've seen so many heavy showers fall, but never hear that magnetic and still therapeutic sound of clashing thunder. Sometimes I miss that. Sometimes I crave that feeling of comfort it gives, or sometimes that electric energy buzz it gives you.
It's never hard to find something to marval at as long as your willing to keep an open mind, heart and eye. Here, there seems to be no shortage of interesting things to admire. Old buildings, cobblestone streets still exist, vast colors that are brilliant in the sun. I need to post more pictures! (Working on that I promise!)
Today though, I just feel dis-enchanted with things. I think it's just one of those "blah" days, but I'm sitting here just REALLY missing those comforts of home. If I wanted to get out even on the gloomiest of days, I always had a wonderful place to go to un-wind or friends to meet up with. Here, my life is very mundain. It's the same thing day in and day out week in and week out. No friends, hobbies other than the gym and no matter what I choose to do, I do it alone. I think my problem is that I lack or have lost any passion or zest for life. Things have been so hard over here this last year with finances, immigration, settling in, etc. that there are days like today where I just feel completely and utterly emotionally drained. I miss friends, I miss the family, the familiar and living a life. Today I'm feeling stifled and lonely. I have never considered myself a home-body or a hermit(not that there is anything wrong with it!) but I think that's what I have started to become...Or maybe it's just the rain and the feelings of today...Maybe it's time to start searching for a hobby that brings something back of myself.
I'm so sorry for the lately whiney blogs! I'm making it sound like it's horrible here and it really isn't! It's just the whole trying to adjust and fit in! I just need to find "me" in all of this again. In time, things will be "right as rain" my blogs more entertaining to read!
Live, Laugh, Love!
It's never hard to find something to marval at as long as your willing to keep an open mind, heart and eye. Here, there seems to be no shortage of interesting things to admire. Old buildings, cobblestone streets still exist, vast colors that are brilliant in the sun. I need to post more pictures! (Working on that I promise!)
Today though, I just feel dis-enchanted with things. I think it's just one of those "blah" days, but I'm sitting here just REALLY missing those comforts of home. If I wanted to get out even on the gloomiest of days, I always had a wonderful place to go to un-wind or friends to meet up with. Here, my life is very mundain. It's the same thing day in and day out week in and week out. No friends, hobbies other than the gym and no matter what I choose to do, I do it alone. I think my problem is that I lack or have lost any passion or zest for life. Things have been so hard over here this last year with finances, immigration, settling in, etc. that there are days like today where I just feel completely and utterly emotionally drained. I miss friends, I miss the family, the familiar and living a life. Today I'm feeling stifled and lonely. I have never considered myself a home-body or a hermit(not that there is anything wrong with it!) but I think that's what I have started to become...Or maybe it's just the rain and the feelings of today...Maybe it's time to start searching for a hobby that brings something back of myself.
I'm so sorry for the lately whiney blogs! I'm making it sound like it's horrible here and it really isn't! It's just the whole trying to adjust and fit in! I just need to find "me" in all of this again. In time, things will be "right as rain" my blogs more entertaining to read!
Live, Laugh, Love!
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