Amber Williams

What I should be doing is going and hanging out with friends...the roads suck, I can't stay over night because of stuff going on, and the last thing I need is any trouble driving home tired or drinking, etc. SO, I decided that just this year, I'm going to make my new years about me! Been chilling with a bottle of champaign, T.V. awesome chinese food, my kid, etc. I know it may sound lame to everyone else, but you have no idea how tired I am! I've been working like a freak'n race horse over the last couple days, I've gotta do some penny pinching because I have some expenses that HAVE to be taken care of. Half of me thinks I may regret this, the other half (including my tired, burning eyes!) are telling me that this was the greatest idea EVER! Truely everyone, this isn't me being sad, angry, emotional, or anything depressing. I'm loving life right now...but sometimes, life just gets too crazy and it leaves me physically drained! Work has been off the wall! Ton...

Wow! Can you all believe that we are quickly approaching Christmas and a New Year?! I like the idea of a new year because its an opportunity to sluff off the old and create a new. A new chapter in a life to become a better existance of self. I personally am looking forward to starting over fresh. I'm more than ready to leave 2009 and all it's drama's and sorrows behind and look forward to a potentially brighter future. As always, I contemplate a New Years resolition, and as always, I come up with the idea that I'm going to have no regrets...I think I've been pretty true to this concept and don't see the need to change that, but I've decided this year to go against my better instincts and add another to list: Be open to possibilities with your heart and mind..instead of just the mind and logic...Mind and logic is what got me into my mess to begin with! I think that I tend to let good opportunities go by because I tend to over think the situation. I want my he...

I've decided that I'm completely in love with the new song from Girls Like Boys "Two is Better Than One"...Check out the lyrics...and the song if you haven't heard it... "I remember what you wore on the first day You came into my life and I thought "Hey, you know, this could be something"' Cause everything you do and words you say You know that it all takes my breath away And now I'm left with nothing So maybe it's true That I can't live without you And maybe two is better than one There's so much time To figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undoneA nd I'm thinking two is better than one, I remember every look upon your face The way you roll your eyes The way you taste You make it hard for breathing 'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away I think of you and everything's okay I'm finally now believing That maybe it's trueThat I can't live without you And maybe two is better...

So, I think I'm in one of those stages where I feel like if I'm not careful I'm going to make a mess of things...This applies to more than 1 area by the way...work, love, friends, etc. Something weird is in the air and I'm not sure what...I just feel that if I'm not careful, it going to hurt. But then again, that could be me trying to drum up some way to keep life interesting...although, it's interesting enough as is! Been talking to the Brit a LOT like everyday since Cancun! He's coming to visit me in March...which I'm looking forward to a lot, but at the same time it makes me nervous! I haven't found anything wrong with him yet...in fact, at this point he's perfect!...The problem isn't soo much him...but the parents...I KNOW its sad I'm saying this...I'm only 3 years to my 30's and I'm worried about getting my parents "permission" like I'm a little kid...But I'm seeing that they may have an age issue...So h...

So, I've been talking to my Brit pretty much everyday since Cancun...He is absolutely AMAZING! He's sweet, kind, considerate, loves to travel...We think so much alike its scary! I'm pretty well hooked on this one without any doubt. He'll be around for a while! So far the plans are for him to come visit sometime next year...between March and May...I honestly can't wait! (If you can't tell...I'm completely enthralled with him!) He just makes me smile a lot! Right now we mainly talk via this internet video chat (Skype...good program! look it up!) so that makes the work of keeping connected easier because at least I can talk to him, hear his voice AND see him!! I don't know you guys, I haven't been divorced long, but he makes me feel so much emotion! For a while I felt so emotionally numb and he makes me feel alive and I think I could be in love with him! Other sad news, spending Thanksgiving alone...I'm sure my waste line will thank me! Lol! I was...

Okay!! Back in Boise and doing well...figured I shouldn't leave you all hanging! (all two of my fans..ha!) So where was I?...I had just found out that the Brit wasn't with these other girls...that they were just friends. So yeah, we talked for a LONG time! Till like 3:30 in the morning...He said some of the sweetest things ever...I had never had a guy be soo sweet! Thing like "How I took his heart and disappeared" and he's been looking for both since that night...Lol! It was a really good time...The man is an AMAZING kisser! I don't know if it's the accent but WOW! I melted! I suppose it could have been the romantic atmosphere...Ocean, beach, night sky and twinkle lights...But I was smitten! So, yeah...The next day I went on an adventure (all day) with my friends and all I could think of is how I would rather be at the hotel talking and hanging out with him...THEN when we got back to the hotel, I run to my room, pack really quick and then work feverishl...

In reference to the header of this post, the song it amazing by the way! It's a fun song! Just thought it was important enough to be noted... Yes my friends, my dance was tropical this past week, I went to Cancun where I was a whole different me! (Lol! Yet another dimension to my personality!) Believe it or not, this prude can be wildly crazy and fun! Behind this very polished mask is the soul of a care-free, fun and fabulous party girl! And yes...there was PLENTY of dancing. It started off a little weird over the first couple days because it turns out the my once "single" friends decided to attach themselves right before coming to Cancun, and to make matters worse, it was the couples in "puppy love" stage...so basically they were all over each other the whole time...imagine how awkward it was for me...I was consistently the 3rd, 5th, and 7th wheel in our group...Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE the people in the group! (You guys ROCKED!) They were ...