Skip to main content

Christmas time is here...

Wow! Can you all believe that we are quickly approaching Christmas and a New Year?! I like the idea of a new year because its an opportunity to sluff off the old and create a new. A new chapter in a life to become a better existance of self. I personally am looking forward to starting over fresh. I'm more than ready to leave 2009 and all it's drama's and sorrows behind and look forward to a potentially brighter future.

As always, I contemplate a New Years resolition, and as always, I come up with the idea that I'm going to have no regrets...I think I've been pretty true to this concept and don't see the need to change that, but I've decided this year to go against my better instincts and add another to list: Be open to possibilities with your heart and mind..instead of just the mind and logic...Mind and logic is what got me into my mess to begin with! I think that I tend to let good opportunities go by because I tend to over think the situation. I want my heart to be open to perhaps the more risky because I think the return on investment will be great! I let my over-thinking build up protection walls and that enables me from being able to accept anything great! SO...We will see how that goes for me!

My gypsy blood is pumping pretty hard through my veins right now...I've got itchy feet that need more than just a little reliever...I think I may be coming up on a time where drasic change could be in order...Like moving...I don't know yet, and I'm locked into my lease till September 2010, but after that, I'm free to go, do, be whatever where ever I choose...the Brit wants me to move to England...I find the thought extremely exciting to be honest! The first idea I have loved in a while!

Speaking of the Brit (Uh oh! Time to gloat more!), he has been such a fantastic guy! I talk to him every chance I get! He's soo much different than any guy I have ever met! I'm falling hard and fast! I honestly don't remember the last time I have felt like this for anyone! It's scary, wonderful, intimidating, and liberating all at the same time! Not going to lie, he inspires my new years res because I'm at that point with him where its all soo amazing and too good to be true, that my thought is to run away...But I just cant! All I can think about is his wonderful smile, amazing sense of humor...The compliments and actions of caring he shows....Sigh!...Puts me on cloud nine! Twitterpated!

Ok...Need to get to bed..busy day tomorrow! Thanks as always for reading my rants and raves..next post will be a little more thorough! Till then, live, laugh and love!

ME!

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Dream Dream Dream...

"Whenever I want you all I have to do is dream..." Funny the things dreams are made of. Interesting how the mind wanders, vents, releases, explores the inner depths of the mind and inner dwindling desires. For me, It seems to be 1 of 2 different outlets for me: first being Anger and pain, second being desire and longing. Both produce the same results: loneliness. Now don't go thinking that I'm all depressed and need an intervention (although maybe sometimes I do!), it's just that sometimes life knocks you hard in the butt and its difficult to keep up with the constant marathon race. Maybe my reaction isn't the best method of dealing, but I can't seem to help the constant exhaustion no matter how hard I try! I am just ready to hit that next chapter of my life you know? So, let me explain the anger dreams...I don't know why they are coming back, but it has to do with the skank that my ex cheated on me and left me for. I think a lot of the tension i...

Waiting for the other shoe to drop...

So, I think I'm in one of those stages where I feel like if I'm not careful I'm going to make a mess of things...This applies to more than 1 area by the way...work, love, friends, etc. Something weird is in the air and I'm not sure what...I just feel that if I'm not careful, it going to hurt. But then again, that could be me trying to drum up some way to keep life interesting...although, it's interesting enough as is! Been talking to the Brit a LOT like everyday since Cancun! He's coming to visit me in March...which I'm looking forward to a lot, but at the same time it makes me nervous! I haven't found anything wrong with him yet...in fact, at this point he's perfect!...The problem isn't soo much him...but the parents...I KNOW its sad I'm saying this...I'm only 3 years to my 30's and I'm worried about getting my parents "permission" like I'm a little kid...But I'm seeing that they may have an age issue...So h...

"The Lead of Love"...

"Looking back at the road so far The journey's left it's share of scars. Mostly from leaving the narrow and straight. Looking back it is clear to me, that a man is more than the sum of his deeds, And how you make good of this mess I've made is a profound mystery. Looking back you know you had to bring me through all that I was so afraid of though I questioned the sky now I see why...Had to walk the rocks to see the mountain view looking back I see the lead of love Looking back I can finally see how failures bring humility(I'd rather have wisdom and pain) Brings me to my knees (Than be a comfortable old fool)Helps me see my need for thee..." - "The Lead of Love" from Caedmon's Call. I have really been working on putting the pieces of my life back together and I think that one of the things that have been missing in my life is my spiritual growth. It's something I've been thinking and missing for some time now and think that maybe ...