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Christmas time is here...

Wow! Can you all believe that we are quickly approaching Christmas and a New Year?! I like the idea of a new year because its an opportunity to sluff off the old and create a new. A new chapter in a life to become a better existance of self. I personally am looking forward to starting over fresh. I'm more than ready to leave 2009 and all it's drama's and sorrows behind and look forward to a potentially brighter future.

As always, I contemplate a New Years resolition, and as always, I come up with the idea that I'm going to have no regrets...I think I've been pretty true to this concept and don't see the need to change that, but I've decided this year to go against my better instincts and add another to list: Be open to possibilities with your heart and mind..instead of just the mind and logic...Mind and logic is what got me into my mess to begin with! I think that I tend to let good opportunities go by because I tend to over think the situation. I want my heart to be open to perhaps the more risky because I think the return on investment will be great! I let my over-thinking build up protection walls and that enables me from being able to accept anything great! SO...We will see how that goes for me!

My gypsy blood is pumping pretty hard through my veins right now...I've got itchy feet that need more than just a little reliever...I think I may be coming up on a time where drasic change could be in order...Like moving...I don't know yet, and I'm locked into my lease till September 2010, but after that, I'm free to go, do, be whatever where ever I choose...the Brit wants me to move to England...I find the thought extremely exciting to be honest! The first idea I have loved in a while!

Speaking of the Brit (Uh oh! Time to gloat more!), he has been such a fantastic guy! I talk to him every chance I get! He's soo much different than any guy I have ever met! I'm falling hard and fast! I honestly don't remember the last time I have felt like this for anyone! It's scary, wonderful, intimidating, and liberating all at the same time! Not going to lie, he inspires my new years res because I'm at that point with him where its all soo amazing and too good to be true, that my thought is to run away...But I just cant! All I can think about is his wonderful smile, amazing sense of humor...The compliments and actions of caring he shows....Sigh!...Puts me on cloud nine! Twitterpated!

Ok...Need to get to bed..busy day tomorrow! Thanks as always for reading my rants and raves..next post will be a little more thorough! Till then, live, laugh and love!

ME!
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