So, I think I'm in one of those stages where I feel like if I'm not careful I'm going to make a mess of things...This applies to more than 1 area by the way...work, love, friends, etc. Something weird is in the air and I'm not sure what...I just feel that if I'm not careful, it going to hurt. But then again, that could be me trying to drum up some way to keep life interesting...although, it's interesting enough as is!
Been talking to the Brit a LOT like everyday since Cancun! He's coming to visit me in March...which I'm looking forward to a lot, but at the same time it makes me nervous! I haven't found anything wrong with him yet...in fact, at this point he's perfect!...The problem isn't soo much him...but the parents...I KNOW its sad I'm saying this...I'm only 3 years to my 30's and I'm worried about getting my parents "permission" like I'm a little kid...But I'm seeing that they may have an age issue...So here's the thing. I'm 27, he's 45...NEVER knew till after Cancun...it never came up! In fact, I could have sworn he was 35...He looks younger, has a younger, more vibrant personality...I personally don't even see his age...I just see him, the way he makes me laugh...the way he makes me smile, he treats me like a princess, makes me feel worthy and desired...SOOOOO many things that I never got from anyone my age! Actually, I'm pretty fed up with the guys my age...they don't know how to treat women! They are self centered, egotistical, and frankly, act like the sun my rise and set in their ass! I don't have to put up with the non-sense with the Brit, it's amazing honestly. But it's also safe right now because he's soo far away...we will see...it interesting.
I'm sure I'll have to have the "talk" with my parents come Christmas when I go over to visit. Not sure how the reaction is going to be considering that my mom off-handedly made the comment "Just as long as he's not in his 40's...." earlier today...I asked why and she was like..."Oh...I don't know!..." It did make me a lot more uncomfortable with the idea of sharing info to her about him...I don't know...I quess just wish me luck?
We will see...maybe the other shoe is with my own family...Sucks to worry about who you can and can't like...
Been talking to the Brit a LOT like everyday since Cancun! He's coming to visit me in March...which I'm looking forward to a lot, but at the same time it makes me nervous! I haven't found anything wrong with him yet...in fact, at this point he's perfect!...The problem isn't soo much him...but the parents...I KNOW its sad I'm saying this...I'm only 3 years to my 30's and I'm worried about getting my parents "permission" like I'm a little kid...But I'm seeing that they may have an age issue...So here's the thing. I'm 27, he's 45...NEVER knew till after Cancun...it never came up! In fact, I could have sworn he was 35...He looks younger, has a younger, more vibrant personality...I personally don't even see his age...I just see him, the way he makes me laugh...the way he makes me smile, he treats me like a princess, makes me feel worthy and desired...SOOOOO many things that I never got from anyone my age! Actually, I'm pretty fed up with the guys my age...they don't know how to treat women! They are self centered, egotistical, and frankly, act like the sun my rise and set in their ass! I don't have to put up with the non-sense with the Brit, it's amazing honestly. But it's also safe right now because he's soo far away...we will see...it interesting.
I'm sure I'll have to have the "talk" with my parents come Christmas when I go over to visit. Not sure how the reaction is going to be considering that my mom off-handedly made the comment "Just as long as he's not in his 40's...." earlier today...I asked why and she was like..."Oh...I don't know!..." It did make me a lot more uncomfortable with the idea of sharing info to her about him...I don't know...I quess just wish me luck?
We will see...maybe the other shoe is with my own family...Sucks to worry about who you can and can't like...
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