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To Forgive...But Become Friends?

After 3 plus years of holding a tight grudge, I finally had the realization that I have no reason to be angry anymore. I had no desire to mourn losses and I was really just ready to get and emotional monkey off my back.

That being said, I decided to respond back to an almost year old apology letter from the woman that my ex-husband left me for. It was a really great letter basically telling her how happy I am currently and how I forgive her and want us both to move forward with our lives. I don't regret writing this letter at all. BUT....

Now she wants to try to become friends! She sent me a facebook message thanking me for the letter and a sad story about how my letter got to her on her moms 3rd anniversary of her death and how she was having a hard time and how much my letter helped her...I'm glad it did, but I'm not sure I'm ready to start a friendship..is that bad? I mean, I feel like I should after the letter but I just don't know that I'm ready! Not sure how to respond and feeling awkward. Any thoughts? How what you feel? What would you do? Please feel free to give advice! I'm lost right now!

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Anonymous said…
I think you have to do what's right for you, and don't feel guilty that you don't want to be friends. She's a grownup, she'll have to deal with her life the way the rest of us have had to. You are such a kind person, I know you have/will make the right decision.
February 19, 2012 at 7:00 AM
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