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Facing Fears Head On

We all get scared from time to time. It's not unusual, it's not a feeling only subjected to specific individuals, it can influence anyone. The trick is to admit your scared, figure out why, and face it straight on.

I think this is something that I've been facing daily since my divorce (and definitely before but it's been more prominently noticeable since my divorce), back then it was "how will I do this on my own?", "will anyone ever love me or am I even capable of loving someone back?" and maybe the funniest of the bunch: "Am I going to become one of those 'spinsters' with 20 cats?!!?" (I don't even really like cats that much! LOL! I much prefer a dog!) But I think this experience here has been the scariest of all experiences. These are new fears like fitting in, adjusting to the culture, acceptance, being able to work and make a good living, driving, etc. It plays on my mind everyday.

I know I can do this, I know that 6 months or even a year from now I will look back and think that this wasn't so bad! I also know that this has made me a strong person and will continue to do so! With everything worth doing in life, is a little bit of fear, failure and hard work...But the end result is something beautiful and wonderful and I am forever grateful for it! I have been given the gift of amazing love, acceptance, and amazing new experiences!

When you compare the benefit's you receive when face those fears, it is completely worth it and rewarding! So maybe next time, instead of running away, face it straight on and see how it can be rewarding for you...I'm trying everyday, sometimes I succeed, sometimes I fail, but something I've decided not to do...Give up!

Live, Laugh, Love.

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