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The problem with Spending too much time alone

Is that it get's you THINKING too much! (Which can be a good or a bad thing!)In my case, I've let it stew out negativity, fear and self-pity for a little too long now. Surprisingly, right now (at this very moment) I am pretty upbeat. I have decided to put my proverbial "big girl panties" on and face the new world with the idea that I am good just the way I am and you can love me or hate me for it! I shouldn't be ashamed of who I am and there is a balance of being respectful to other people, cultures, etc. without losing myself. Lately, I've spent far too much time moping around, creating needless (and frankly worthless) insecurities and feeling sorry for myself and consistently re-analyzing my decisions. I've been holding on to the past so tightly that it's been keeping me from being able to move on with my future and open myself to the endless opportunities I could be experiencing. It's time to thank the past for making me who I am today and boldly grab tomorrows "bulls horns" with my head held high and move forward!

I made this specific choice in my life for a reason and I am strong enough to get through the good and bad that comes with it! And as much as I feel it sometimes, I'm not alone, I have friends supporting me from back home. I have amazing family home and here that having been very encouraging and I have an amazing husband that shows me every day in every way that he loves me and is here for me (he does so much more than I ask and deserve!)! I'm a pretty blessed girl and the sooner I embrace that with a positive spirit and outlook on life, the better my world will become.

I may not be able to control everything in my world, but I can control my attitude and reaction towards it and I think it's time to shine some healthy vitamin D into this spirit of mine! So wish me luck! (and sorry you had to read a personal pep-talk, I just needed to voice it out there! LOL!)

Live, Laugh, Love.

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