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STILL Waiting!!!

UGHHH!!!! This is torture!! How long must I endure the painful wait?? (Please no comments of it "building character"....I DON'T CARE!!)

I'm just very anxious! I thought I would be there by now and I'm finding myself stuck in the land of "what if?"...By this I mean questions that cause me to worry like "What if it got lost in the mail??", "What if they are taking so long because they are going to say no??", "What if it takes many months more to get my approval??"...etc! It's all stressful! I only have so much money to stretch out to a certain point! So, my fear is that I will run out of funding and need to get a temp job to make ends meet and Dave will have to pick up my slack more...*pout!* I don't know if my paperwork is coming via normal snail mail or certified mail, UPS, etc. and my biggest worry is that it gets lost! I have tried to remind myself that I DID receive the letter stating that it would take them 5-15 days to get this done and send it back and it's only been 11 working days, so I shouldn't panic till AFTER Friday or Saturday. Just keep me in your prayers k?

Other news, I won't be going and spending time in Colorado after all! (Sooo sad Meg! I was hoping to see you!!) My mom will be back this Wednesday and I was planning on going to help her out, but without her there...I don't know!

In other news, I did start my weight loss plan and tracking on the 15th of November and I'm proud to say that even with Thanksgiving and a two pound gain (141 to 143) I have successfully lost those 2 pounds and another 1 pound to boost (for a whopping weight of 140lbs right now! My goal is to be back at 125lbs)ALSO I was excited to see that I lost a half of an inch in my hips, 1.5 inches loss in my waist! (BIG yay!) and like an inch and a half in my upper thighs!! (whoo hoo!) So there is some positivity for the day! I joined sparkpeople.com and am doing their 28-day challenge (one week down!) which has been cool, I think this week though, instead of doing their 10 minute video's once, I'm going to do the same video twice for more of a challenge! With that I typically do some sort of 30 minute (or so) cardio session 5 times a week! (This is typically either the elliptical or like Wii boxing, running, etc!! Hoping to fit amazingly in my dress and have AWESOME honeymoon pictures! :)

So what now? More of the waiting game! Sorry this post was kinda boring, it's about all that's been going on though! LOL! I will update when I hear more exciting news!!

Love you all!!
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Anonymous said…
In my experience if "they," meaning anyone, says 15 days, it's usually 15 days or more. LAME! Keep your head up, you'll be on your way before you know it. :)
November 29, 2010 at 9:22 PM
Megan said…
Bummer to no Colorado time!! I'm glad we have reconnected online at least. Praying that your paperwork arrives soon!! Don't worry about things you can't control - trust the One who has it all under control. Great Beth Moore quote: "God is never late, but he sure misses a few good opportunities to be early!!"
November 30, 2010 at 5:33 PM
Amber Williams said…
Thanks my two fantastic friends!! I needed the encouragement! It's been hard not to get a little blue over the whole thing!
December 1, 2010 at 9:03 PM
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