I read a quote today that did make me smile a little. It said "Just when you think you can make ends meet, somebody moves the ends"...LOL! How appropriate is this in my life!?
EVERY TIME I get life, finances, job, etc. just something on a good successful route, life comes at me with full force blowing wind to push me back to square 1! Eventually I think I will just learn to stop fighting the force and go with the flow, but somewhere, somehow, stubborness hangs on by a tiny thread!
I can't complain about everything in my life, there are many positives to be noted! One positive includes moving into a beautiful new home! (To be entirely too honest, it's much to big for us, and it's going to be expensive, but because of not being able to get the other homes we applied for, this was the only other choice that wouldn't land us into gang or drug/alcoholic living territory or a home that looked like it could have been a meth lab!! We have 6 months to decided whether or not we want to long term stay...We'll see!) It's a big 5 bedroom home and will give me plenty of opportunity to hold family functions and get togethers with friends. So for that, I am extremely grateful! ALSO, who WOULD'NT love a sauna underneath their stairs?!?! (oddly enough, you open the door under the stairs and expect to see Harry Potters little bedroom and instead are met by a toilet and sink followed by a 2nd door with a sauna behind it! LOL! Pictures/walk through video will be taken!) Anyways, even for just 6 months, this house will rock!
Not so positive changes include more car issues (which means more money being spent on something I would prefer to put to something else!), job uncertainties (BAD timing with being locked into this new home! Though nothing certain just yet, there's just some things going on and I'm not sure how it will pan out!).
I wasn't going to mention another situation that has come up, but I think I just need somewhere to vent! My mom was diagnosed with cervical cancer as well. She's been have problems with her uterus and such anyways, but then they added the diagnosis od cancer on it to boot. They want to have surgery to completely remove her uterus and think that will get rid of all the cancer, but now they are having problems being able to medically clear her for surgery due to other related issues. She was diagnosed back in the beginning of June and aren't looking at clearing her for surgery till the end of July/August time...It's scary to me that they can wait that long! I think what feels even worse though is not being able to be there for her! I mean like mentally and emotionally. I know she has moer physical help than any one person could ask for, but how about mentally and emotionally? My mom is my best friend and it's just hard not to be there for her in the event she just needs to cry on a shoulder you know? I keep in touch by skype, but it's not the same as being able to give her a hug. I will keep updating as I hear. I'm confident everything is fine, but there's always that fear, you know?
Anyways, to end on a positive note, I'm going to spend some quality time with my amazing husband and perhaps a glass (or 2 of wine!) :)
Love you all!!
Its funny that certain people always thought I would be just a pee on. Well, it's nice for once to see you sweating the bullets! You see, I hate being peed on, but I also know what goes around comes around and with a little bit of hard work and some good karma, all the sudden I don't seem so weak! I love how you think you can play the emotional cards on me such as "Leaving the love of family and close friends!"...What you don't realize is that I don't care...It's not that I don't care about the love of family and close friends mind you, because I do, it's that all my family and friends are completely supportive and excited for me about this, so trying to use them against me is pointless because I already have "their blessings". I've got the love and support from the people I CARE about! It's just that you think I'm impressionable and naive, but what it has come down to is that I say anything just to shut you up! You think your...
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