Amber Williams

What I should be doing is going and hanging out with friends...the roads suck, I can't stay over night because of stuff going on, and the last thing I need is any trouble driving home tired or drinking, etc. SO, I decided that just this year, I'm going to make my new years about me! Been chilling with a bottle of champaign, T.V. awesome chinese food, my kid, etc. I know it may sound lame to everyone else, but you have no idea how tired I am! I've been working like a freak'n race horse over the last couple days, I've gotta do some penny pinching because I have some expenses that HAVE to be taken care of. Half of me thinks I may regret this, the other half (including my tired, burning eyes!) are telling me that this was the greatest idea EVER! Truely everyone, this isn't me being sad, angry, emotional, or anything depressing. I'm loving life right now...but sometimes, life just gets too crazy and it leaves me physically drained! Work has been off the wall! Ton

Wow! Can you all believe that we are quickly approaching Christmas and a New Year?! I like the idea of a new year because its an opportunity to sluff off the old and create a new. A new chapter in a life to become a better existance of self. I personally am looking forward to starting over fresh. I'm more than ready to leave 2009 and all it's drama's and sorrows behind and look forward to a potentially brighter future. As always, I contemplate a New Years resolition, and as always, I come up with the idea that I'm going to have no regrets...I think I've been pretty true to this concept and don't see the need to change that, but I've decided this year to go against my better instincts and add another to list: Be open to possibilities with your heart and mind..instead of just the mind and logic...Mind and logic is what got me into my mess to begin with! I think that I tend to let good opportunities go by because I tend to over think the situation. I want my he

I've decided that I'm completely in love with the new song from Girls Like Boys "Two is Better Than One"...Check out the lyrics...and the song if you haven't heard it... "I remember what you wore on the first day You came into my life and I thought "Hey, you know, this could be something"' Cause everything you do and words you say You know that it all takes my breath away And now I'm left with nothing So maybe it's true That I can't live without you And maybe two is better than one There's so much time To figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undoneA nd I'm thinking two is better than one, I remember every look upon your face The way you roll your eyes The way you taste You make it hard for breathing 'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away I think of you and everything's okay I'm finally now believing That maybe it's trueThat I can't live without you And maybe two is better

So, I think I'm in one of those stages where I feel like if I'm not careful I'm going to make a mess of things...This applies to more than 1 area by the way...work, love, friends, etc. Something weird is in the air and I'm not sure what...I just feel that if I'm not careful, it going to hurt. But then again, that could be me trying to drum up some way to keep life interesting...although, it's interesting enough as is! Been talking to the Brit a LOT like everyday since Cancun! He's coming to visit me in March...which I'm looking forward to a lot, but at the same time it makes me nervous! I haven't found anything wrong with him yet...in fact, at this point he's perfect!...The problem isn't soo much him...but the parents...I KNOW its sad I'm saying this...I'm only 3 years to my 30's and I'm worried about getting my parents "permission" like I'm a little kid...But I'm seeing that they may have an age issue...So h